using wordpress after such a long gap ki i forgot own id & password.By the way its really a disaster time for me.
sixth sem almost over & only result left means “picture abhi baaki hai”. In bit d most important sem is 6th & amount of masti what i did in this sem is more than total of all the masti what i did in last five sem.Dota ruined me and finally i ruined myself.Some people were to help me out but i was not in a position to help myself.Many new thing happen with me in this sem.My mid-sem total was too less,almost half of the total what i got in first-sem.First time attendance in one subject was below 75%,& missed three lab classes too.I did not find any reason why should not i insult & punish myself.It is always hard to find punishment for yourself.This sem end within a fraction and i lost many thing in this short span.i lost my respect in my own eye,got insulted in many viva,one Prof. even ask me the meaning of my own name.I was always in a habit to blame institute but at this situation i find myself totally responsible for own state.Situation made me little depressed ,my confidence level is at zero point level.Dont know how to recover from this situation because once u lost confidence u lost everything. In this highly competitive world it is always hard to survive,people threw me far behind them .I was always a average student throughout my school ,college but at this time as per c.g.p.a. i will be in bottom 10.High chances of getting ‘d’ grade in 1 subject.For the first time i will be awarded fail in any of the subject that i learnt so far.I didnt respect time so time now time will take revenge.i have turn out to become such a person whom i was hating.To wake up at 1′o clock then got engaged in a game for the whole day & night.Didnt care the surrounding,even didnt care for myself.Its very easy to come out of a physical pain but the mental sorrow is very hard to handle.May be a gap of two & half month ease off my pain but in these holiday i will always face a nightmare of getting back in fcs paper.I m feeling sorry for myself.
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hi friend, u r right that such things makes us depressed if we are not used to..but at the same time its also true that such situation comes in everyone’s life..
sometimes it braeks us and sometimes makes us stronger..to think differently..to see the other side of life, to feel the enthusiasm of success after failure..so dear dont feel sorry for urself,never feel sorry..life goes on..