Review of Time called- QuarteR

Its been exact three month since i joined HPCL one of the Navratna listed company in India. In last 3 month a lot has happened in my life, transformation from Senior engineer in ISPAT to Sales officer of HPCL krishna district( A.P.). Lets summarize some facts of last three month all across me :

1) Terror of terrorist: Bomb blast has become a usual thing in India, with every attack govt. mesmerizes their phenomenal dialogue of condemning the terrorist and blah blah. Attack on Mumbai(where i was last 1 year) in july and attack on delhi once again claimed many innocent life. On the other hand terrorist like Kasab is sitting in one of the most secure place in India enjoying chicken-biryani, shame on you Indian Govt. for condemning only on terrorism.

2 )Cricket: Dhoni & Co. is going through one of the worse nightmare these days. You may give excuse regarding absence of Some key player but the most valuable thing is that you were unable to retain the crown for less than 1 year of being a number-one cricket playing nation.

3)Travelling: Last quarter i travelled a lot Pune-Mumbai-Vijayawada-Hyderabad-Delhi and thirty village/town/city around Vijayawada. On an average 1000 Km in a week, it really hurts man , developed some sorts of pain in my back. Whoever says there is no work in PSUs kindly take some feedback from me(Kaun kambakht kahta hai PSU mein kaam nahi hota). Last 90 days i had meal in around 30-40 different restaurent still couldn’t figure out a regular place to feed myself, lets get going however it is.

4) Personal learning: No doubt last quarter i learn a lot of thing in life and gone through lot of up and down. I learn Car driving( still i don’t have any DL) , i can read Telgu language(Obviously chala chala confusing language) and still a lot to learn in this, improves knowledge in MS Office but the toughest thing what i learn is to digest Andhra-Meal willingly. Yes, i learn Inspection/sampling/SOP/ODMT and many other tool what my job require me to know, i learn to meet different people with smile(though i never feel gud at heart). Here at Vijayawada i don’t have friend at home or office i have just roommate and colleague with whom it is not so easy to mix up. Out of several other thing whatever i learnt the most important is i learn to behave like an OFFICER who understand his responsibilities and work hardly rather sincerely for his company. Even in worst of my dream i had never thought that i have to take so much endurance in any PSUs job (thats the life of sales officer).

5) Ups & Downs: “NTPC calling” this was one of my dream sentence which i was carrying since long time. Fortunate to clear NTPC but unfortunate that i couldn’t join. Sometime u can’t control these happening. Just want to do something in technical field but i am destined to do something else here pure marketting man no relation from technical aspect. Sometime i enjoy and sometime curse those HR people who put me in Sales. Vijayawada is complete telgu spaking place difficult to mix up with these people. Anyway mitr got placed in HPCL by these time and i am damn happy for him, as in my last post also i pointed how close we were in college.

What next: I will be handling an entire district HPCL outlet here from now onwards, area allocation has been done now.Difficult phase gonna start so lets face it. Wanna give my level best for coming month and still if i won’t enjoy then definitely gonna prepare for GATE exam ( I still love technican line a lot) so that after a lapse of 10 year i shouldn’t have any regret over my decision. Its always what you choose to be!  Situation will always be under thumb if i have a clear cut determination. When you want something very badly you will get it. So just do it man once again for personal and professional satisfaction.

DeparturE Time

So finally i cracked HPCL officer trainee selection exam  that brings me in a pool of EEE guy who make through PSU.Its been around nine long and marathon month of my life where  i link  myself with full dedication and enthusiasm. Some people say that you don’t require to glorify PSU a lot ,but for me it was a kind of dream what i was chasing once HG make it to the Reliance Power. In Feb. PK too left for ZS and i was the last EEE guy in ISPAT, but neway it all ended on happy note. So nomore challan procedure, nomore sleepless night before exam and perhaps nomore interviews. But one thing always comes in my mind, whether i will be able to make justice with the knowledge what i acquire in the pursuit of cracking PSU. Whether i should become a lazy govt. employee who enjoy his salary without contributing well enough. I do not think that i have acquire these knowledge in order to crack PSU only, no man i wanna make use of my knowledge, cognizance,awareness in electrical field to a good cause.

   So what next? Is this such a big question, ofcourse not. Some people advised me to goo for marketting job and settle for entire life and but as an engineer i find my role more prominent in refinery field. I talked a lot about new innovation and technology field in oil sector in present scenario.So its the time to follow my word and put heart to learn/undersatnd the new innovation and optimum utilization of available resources.

Family: My brother is likely to be engaged in next month and i am damn happy to imagine about this marriage. This is gonna be first marriage of my family and definitely its gonna be colourful. “Bhabhi” a new member is gonna get attached with my family, i just hope she enjoy her lifetime stay with us. Its gonna be lot of fun n booze along with some of my friends whom i expected to attend this marriage ceremoney. 

I an little unhappy on Mitr exclusion in HPCL . I think he deserve some space in my blog. Mitr and I were a interim friend in college, we were always together throughout 4 year. Certainly he is my best friend of college ,we did almost everything together from EEE classroom ,Dota, Kesri project,elective paper and all. This is the second time when we lost opportunity to get connected via inclusion in same company. But destiny got something else for both of us, though i am on other side of shore but Mitr is still trying to fight with his situation. GOD kindly help him to fulfill his dream as soon as possible.

Departure time: Yes two more days left in ISPAT tomorrow i am gonna distribute sweet to my department-mate. Perhaps now it’s time to reveal where i am going exactly. I guess some of the people will be fully surprised and some may feel it shocking too. But me too gonna miss some people very badly,actually during my staying in ISPAT i had developed some lovely relationship with some colleague. But thats the bitter truth of corporate life what we all have to obey with full heart. Actually i never expected to come out like this from ISPAT , i got to learn a lot over here. Not only in terms of technical specialisation but mostly on mental terms. Yes here i developed a desire to fight with the current situation,desire that keeps me towards accomplishment of task, and desire to accept endurance for good cause. Last one year was defining moment of my life, rather say life changing moment . I am gonna miss some ISPATian and from the bottom of my heart i thanx “Gautam Khera” and “Rugved sir” who keeps me on right track through these 1 year. Thanx GOD for letting me achieve this trophy for myself and my family. 

   

Pursuance and following your dream

Today is one of the special day for me. Yes now i realize one of my biggest mistake. I never plan well how to pursue my dream or how to follow them precisely i never give a thought for final kill shot. Making a small dream is major crime, man’s character is reflected by his dream and attitude and several blah blah.  Of course in this world we all dream high & big and we don’t require an advertisement by shahrukh khan for this,actually  it is the natural feeling what we all had in our mind since birth. The passion of accomplishment of your dream fills you with such joy that every move you takesin that direction makes you feel nice. It doesn’t matter how much sacrifice you have to make for that, how much habit you have to give it up for this but in the day when you will turn your dream into reality it will compensate for every other thing that you had ever bear for this. One wise man has told that every success has a price to pay and in my verdict success is where you convert your dream comes true. Today i have a dream in my heart, to crack BARC interview and get through the one of the most prestigious technical institute of INDIA. Though i had prepared a lot to get through any reputate PSU but honestly the feeling and thrilling of getting through BARC is much above all this. I want to set this benchmark for me, so  how to plan for this interview. Most probably in the coming month i will make through HPCL and can settle for my life in OIL field. But my heart is still attached in the village and i really want to improve the irrigation facility in village. With the help of technical knowledge whatever i acquired in personal and professional life can’t i take even a single step to improve the irrigation facilty? No, i am not telling that i will improve the situation drastically but can’t i upgrade it marginally? Yes man i can do it, and i am not going to die without accomplishment of  this dream. Yes i lack consistency while following my own routine, i don’t bear a nice tempo towards accomplishment of my target and yes i am not a person who is so deterministic in his approach. But i promise to myself i will try my level best to crack this BARC interview, i badly want this as i believe nice idea can be received from nice person. But can i help myself to keep me constantly motivated towards my own ambition and dream. As per verdict of Dr. A.P.J. kalam every individual must possess a dream in his heart and must try to fulfill them sincerely and accordingly. Today i show some courage to describe them publicly and now i am going to set my own condition and restriction to achieve this sound dream. Nothing tastes sweeter than success and i love success above every other thing in life.

Moment

Many time we decide to take a step towards our carrier,personal life without actually knowing when to start.From now onwards for me “MOMENT means now”. Yes from now onwards i will try my best to execute my plan or aim from the very first moment it will strike out my mind.Success make u feel good,open new way of life,make thing look  easy and healthy.On the other way failure makes u feel bad but that’s not the only truth what failure bring.It also makes u strong and direct u take a look over ur way of approach,guidance n knowledge towards life.”Life is not that easy” these word were always spoken by parent,brother,teacher but i just overlooked them and left my destiny on time and luck.As per my effort no complain with luck,infact failure is the best school of learning(depends on person also).
Now i have decided to learn from my mistake and come out as a real hard and a changed person who got spark in his stomach to achieve something.Looking at the statistics many great people were deprived of success for long time.Being successfull is not under your control,the thing what u can really control is your determination and effort to keep ur dream alive and come closer to it day by day.Kushal,Ram babu,Gangu even these people were rejected in many interview but now-a-day they are placed in one of the best company.No doubt collective effort of knowledge and rejecion and feeling of keep trying raise them to such place .But the master thing in these situation is trying and effort.Right now i want to step out from my current Job (dunno where) and i will keep trying again and again untill the day i will make my name attached with some big brand name company.I won’t be a nobody for long time,wanna get recognised in this world among my friend family and offcourse critics.So i will never give up ever in my life will give everything to get recognised and earn respect in my own eye.

Job life.

Its been around a month after i stepped into job life. Training program is generally meant for learning something that u will need to carry out on job.As i belong to my core enginnering sector thing coming easily in my way, nothing is different as i learnt in my btech degree (excluding size of appliances) what i ever thought.Culture of office is too down from my expectation many of the diploma holder ppl are working aatep ahead of engineer becoz of their experince what dey earned.Salary is little below to my expectation hope thing will get easy & balance once training period is over.Monsoon of mumbai is quiet good but we need to be ready all d time for rainfall.
The thing what i really notein office is u can’t survive in this job market after pursuing only bachelor degree.If u really wanna reach height than go for any master degree or phd. if u really wanna study more n more) ..Neway there is no limit of desire in life noone seems to be happy with his salary & package every1 just keep on demanding more n more…and this desire is the real motivation to work ..if u won’t desire will limit ur expectation den no improvement factor will come into existence. Being happy is good but being happy with some more target to achieve bring prosperity in life…..

Linking myself

Iam having the same dream in last three night that new semester has started, and i started to enjoy semester with my friend.Is it my eagerness for 7thsem(4th year) or i want to come out of my present situation while staying in hostel for summer.Wind is blowing opposite to my wish and will.Every morning or afternoon when i wake up i dont  know  what to do today,couldn’t figure out my plan to survive.These days i have developed a strong bond to myself,just think about yourself,now i dont care what people think about me.Do whatever comes in your mind make your own destination and follow ur own path.Becoz if u fail den also it will be ur mistake no need to blame other.One more thing that i realize ki never try to make a one-word evaluation about a person lyk(intelligent,bhaklol,bakc***) every1 has got some speciality which makes him unique.Actually all got something to deliver to society it only matter ki u know where exactly u have to serve ur pure services.The behaviour of student to step from student life to professional life is need to put some attention.Dont u feel ki more or less they behave like a prost***** to appear for selection in different company. Once u got selected in one company just stick to that  instead of that for making more money & so called honour they run to other company.(plz dont mind its my personal view)Actually everyone is confused and nobody know their destiny so all just run behind the opportunity.No question of commitment to the company u placed or working,its how the professional lyf proceedes.So, there also people think about themselves without worrying about the reaction of other people and society.So i decided to start my professional lyf in college and i think and care onlyabout myself (Though its going to worth nothing).But the problem is my destination is not clear so path too.Sorrow of being alone in the hostel for summer doesn’t hurt me lot dont know why.May be it was expected or i have become little tough or i have become so careless to think about these non-sense thing.The thing had happened now it cant be retraced so better dont panic over fcs issue.It is result of my hardwork in DOTA that become destiny to stay in summer and bad luck for extending exam date.The only thing that hurt me  ki i did not informed my parent about my back.But i will admit that too on right tym,can anyone tell me what will be that right time?

6th Sem Disaster

using wordpress after such a long gap ki i forgot own id & password.By the way its really a disaster time for me.
sixth sem almost over & only result left means “picture abhi baaki hai”. In bit d most important sem is 6th & amount of masti what i did in this sem is more than total of all the masti what i did in last five sem.Dota ruined me and finally i ruined myself.Some people were to help me out but i was not in a position to help myself.Many new thing happen with me in this sem.My mid-sem total was too less,almost half of the total what i got in first-sem.First time attendance in one subject was below 75%,& missed three lab classes too.I did not find any reason why should not i insult & punish myself.It is always hard to find punishment for yourself.This sem end within a fraction and i lost many thing in this short span.i lost my respect in my own eye,got insulted in many viva,one Prof. even ask me the meaning of my own name.I was always in a habit to blame institute but at this situation i find myself totally responsible for own state.Situation made me little depressed ,my confidence level is at zero point level.Dont know how to recover from this situation because once u lost confidence u lost everything. In this highly competitive world it is always hard to survive,people threw me far behind them .I was always a average student throughout my school ,college but at this time as per c.g.p.a. i will be in bottom 10.High chances of getting ‘d’ grade in 1 subject.For the first time i will be awarded fail in any of the subject that i learnt so far.I didnt respect time so time now time will take revenge.i have turn out to become such a person whom i was hating.To wake up at 1′o clock then got engaged in a game for the whole day & night.Didnt care the surrounding,even didnt care for myself.Its very easy to come out of a physical pain but the mental sorrow is very hard to handle.May be a gap of two & half month ease off my pain but in these holiday i will always face a nightmare of getting back in fcs paper.I m feeling sorry for myself.

Slanging among Friend

Today i had a small verbal fight with one of my friend at BIT.Lobby Cricket was the point of objection that finally lead to this much anger and frustation from both side.All was because of desire to win at any cost while neglecting surrounding and our own friend.Now i am not going to think over the reason or the pressure that bring such condition,but i felt something that i would like to discuss.

What should be the best way to end any confusion or fight.Either you talk gently to the point and contradict anyone or just go away for 10-15 minutes for cooldown. If you are talking without sense by giving any false clue or imagination then you will never reach to the solution.Slanging is a good thing in International event but you can’t expect to use this “Game-Politics” in our lobby cricket especially when you are taking 4-5 game in a row. I initialized a word “MATIYAO NA YAAR” when thing become little hot this policy is very good,but if your opponent is slanging  continuously then definitely you cannot play peacefully in those situation.Once there is counteract of slanging then game is gonna to end because majority of people will get engage in that verbal war.Life is not only about winning or Loosing its all how do you handle any tough situation that arise instantaneously and preserve your good relation.Surely none of game’s emotion is bigger than our friendly emotion so when situation goes out of control just think about the fact what we are going to achieve and at what cost??

Today our game was disturb by me so i am sorry to all of my friend and wish that this situation should not arise in future.

GoP Vs GaP

Have u people ever thought about d longest day of ur life. think take ur time……

30-june-2k6 d day when i take on Aieee counselling,making speculation regarding my future.Perhaps that was d single day of my life when i was confused,tense &  exasperated  throughout whole day.By that time i hadn’t seen aieee brochure &  was unaware of available seat for me.Apart from that a strange,inevitable, uncertain new rule was waiting to give a strong jolt to me.A new reservation system was introduced for girls (better to say lucky girls),with a weightage of 20%(isn’t ds very much).I was shocked completely & there only i decided to make some changes in my list meant for selection of college & branch.Why,what’s need to implement such reservation only on the basis of sex without considering about their economic,or financial condition whether they require such reservation or not.In any case is it sound relevant ??I don’t think so…… but at one point they(i mean most of them) get engaged 2k5 boy as friend,combining these 2 term become “boyfrind”.Making fun with them at canteen,dhaba,sports centre,ranchi & many other place which can’t be disclose here.Extracting money from their pocket,& availing many other facilities & services from them…..but what they r paying in return(let’s forget it afterall its their own life)……But Is 4 ds reason they were given reservation ??Are they making proper use of  bestow provided to dem by Our Deemed university,which came on d cost of career-n-future of approx. 15%(60) boys student who were more deserving in comparison to GOP student.is profit 4 som1 going to cause harm to som1(yes).Ds GOP is going to cause a huge GaP in their lyf,& they will always abuse their destiny atleast for “4″ year.

what makes me to express these thing now……after a long 2.25 year?? If som1 achieves success without making sincere effort or without paying price den he/she won’t keep feet on land….they people will always go on flying,this had happened wd dem.After 1st round result of Gsach a girl makes her comment “Saala iska kaise ho gaya”.I really can’t understand how a man could be “Saala” of a girl…. whether she has doubt over her own sexuality or he/she is bisexual,in biology there r a term 4 ds  “Herma********” u got it. so wt can be expected from these people who even don’t posses their identity in universal defined group of male & female.So, let dem do wtevr they want & i will do as per my wish.

But at d end,wt matters is brand equity that would get diluted due to presence of such a cheap gals among us.I’m not targetting all d gals entered through GOP bt definitely some of u really deserve such word to reveal ur own identity & “AUKAAT”.Ds GOP is also sketching a big gap among our heart,relationship & thinking too.

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INTERACTION WITH COMPANY

Today is 14.08.08,a day before independence,thursday that is always a lucky day for me.Today, one new thing happen with me. Perhaps in the last 1.5 year only a single thing to be counted. Gsacs a investment banking  company visited our campus for placement as well as intern of 3rd year student.As ds was d first opportunity for we people to interact with corporate world,so almost all interested people take aptitude round.During apti round some of d people were very serious,they might be dreaming good life after  gsachs intern.so,only 19 people were selected after 1st round,& i was one of them.As per me that was result of good effort & luck too.The moment when topper of my class revealed us in front of whole class i really felt proud on myself.In GD round i was eliminated,only 9 people were able to make their way.Perhaps i didn’t perform as per their expectation,but 1 of my closest friend was selected for interview.As per him his final round was quiet O.k. and now i am going with him to see his final result.Its only up to GOD who knows whether we will be celebrating coming days in party ,fun or like a normal days.